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Monday, April 5, 2010

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just read ur blog,and thanks.


yes,i am so childish, keanak-anak kan as u said.
u no need to blah, let me blah.
kau dah penat melayan perangai budak budak aku and dah naek menyampah and all and evrything datang dari aku.
u wanna be alone and ask let u be. fine, aku takkan kacau kau dah lepas ni. i mean it.
yes, i dunno what happen to you. same goes you, kau taktau ape jadi kat aku. kau takde nak cerita kat aku pun. and that nite, kau kuwa. text kau tapi takde feedback and sudenly call and ... -.- tu life kau, so aku taknak cakap ape, taknak masok campo.
yes, aku tau kau penat, aku pun penat. sama sama penat. let me setel masalah aku is it? and dun wery aku tak kacau kau dah lepas ni. everything almost done.
yes, aku tuduh kau sebab mana kau pergi masa tuh? tiba tiba hilang macam tuh. no comment for that. salah aku jugak sebab aku tak faham kau. kan?
yes, aku kasa bahase dgn kau, rude. sebab aku geram. yes, memang salah aku.
yes, u not try to hurt me when u was under huge pressure. but, tellme where are u when i need someone masa aku nak kau ade? yes, aku tawu kau busy. ok, aku taknak kacau kau or take your time. sumpah weh aku takut nak text kau even one call aku takut. and yes, ade benda aku kecik hati dengan kau. yes, kau banyak motivated aku and teach me thousand things and change my life not-to-be childish. i know myself clear, i am not childish as u thought. :)

one day, i told you something and aku mengadu kat kau,and you replied with "zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz" im was like dying. ok, aku dah besar, pandai laa aku jage diri is it? kau temankan aku tak masa tuh?tak, kau pegi mana aku tak tau. end up pagi tuh u text me kau tertido that nite. tape, kau penat. aku faham. bagi kau rest, aku ok.
second time, aku mengadu lagi, kau tak reply. kau senyap till esok. and midnight kite gado lagi.ok, salah aku jugak that time kau cakap. ok, my fault. aku mengaku.i am so childish as u said. and im try not depending you dah afta this.
kau salu cakap, kau layankan rentak aku. ok. aku tawu aku banyak menyusah menyerabot kan kau. its over susah serabotkan kau lepas ni.

yes, kau PRICELESS.



kau ade ramai kawan, aku takde, its not effected pun kan.
kau penah cakap kau bole continue your next day without me even ts hard but u are preety sure that you can do it.
but, not for me. yes, aku mengaku. i can't but aku akan cuba starting from now on :)

let you be alone and let you be.
aku tak kacau kau lagi, kau tak perlu blah, biar aku yang pergi.
take care weh.
such have a great time knowing and spent my time with you. you make my day and the important is, i will missed you afta this.
Till then, take a good care of yoself.


nedy.

someone gave me this, special huge thanks for the sender :))

A Painful Regret

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called
"best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.


:'(

p/s: sumone gave me this, thanx !! sumpa sedeh duh, ;(.
soory im not so good in english. it was id bahasa, and i've translate into an english because my frend ask me to do so (dye tak paham bahasa) *pfft.